Tuesday, July 8

because i believe he is still with me..

and because i believe he always will be.. <3

my dear jimmy.. i will love and miss you always.. until we are together again.. xo snowpea.

he breaks the spell still young
awakes from out this dream of life
and leaves us sleeping
storm racked blind consumed
by phantom pale displays of grief
he slips from out this shadow land of pain
where heads grow sorrow grey
and age destroys all hope
and spirits crushed
lament and hide away

but wordless watch the soft sky smile
and breathless hear the low wind sigh
"what death may join no more let life divide"

"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
be with me... "

he breaks the chains still young
dispels the hateful shades of treacherous time
and leaves us sleeping
tortured mute
devoured by ghostly shapes of life
he slips from ties of dust
to be the world we dream he lives
a part of everything we feel
the young and beautiful
and brave of heart

but wordless watch the soft sky smile
and breathless hear the low wind sigh
"what death may join no more let life divide"

"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
be with me... "
"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
forever... "

r.smith.

2 comments:

joshuacallism said...

hits the nail on the head.

baby j said...

i've been putting all my cure cds onto my ipod.. and this song came on.. and it did exactly that.. hit the nail on the head.. all of the things i've been feeling.. all in one song.. i've had dreams about jimmy almost every week since he passed.. i'll be doing good.. coping.. dealing.. and then i have these incredibly realistic dreams.. and i feel him.. i can feel him near me.. i see him in my daily life.. in the things we talked about.. in the places we lived.. anything that reminds me of him.. i see him there.. i saw a boy that looked like him when i was in ohio.. it scared me.. i still have his number saved in my phone.. it doesn't belong to anyone.. doesn't even work.. but i keep it.. on those nights when i miss him terribly i'll send a text message to that number... i imagine it gets lots in space.. an undeliverable message.. but part of me thinks it just floats around in time until he finds it.. i know he's still here.. i carry him in my heart everywhere that i go...