things were looking up for me.. rad friends, fun times, sweet trips to hang with an amazing boy.. and how quickly things are changing.. people are moving (myself possibly included), hang outs are less and less..
i'm not sure at all where anything in my life stands at this moment.. i've played it all out a hundred times.. and it looks like nothing is headed in the direction i had hoped it would.. but what can i do? make attempts to fix it? try my best and hope my best is good enough?
until then.. i will just make regular trips to the ocean.. to sit with myself and try to let it all go.. i'll close out all my applications and hit restart.. maybe i'll run more efficiently next time..